First failed attempt

Ok so maybe drawing is not my thing. I tried twice this week to sit down and relax and draw or color. I know I am far from being good at artistic things like drawing but I enjoy art classes when someone is telling me how to do it. I guess I forgot that on my own I just sit there and stare at the paper wondering what to do? Well, I like to color so I will still try that on occasion but I am putting drawing back on the shelf for now unless I can find an art class. I need something more constructive, like building something with my hands. I was looking up hobbies on pintrest and found this guy who glues toothpicks together and makes these elaborate structures like the entire city of New York, or the London Bridge. Very impressive. Well that won't me by any means, but it gave me an idea to try my hand and making something. I did do something fun this weekend but it was not really a hobby. I found some trails through the woods around my place that go around this small man made lake. Very pretty and enjoyable. I love being outside it is very calming. What kind of hobby can a person do outside that is not too active, since my tummy is growing by inches with baby Farnham as we speak? Bird watching? No way, I too ADHD for that. Can walking be a hobby, after all it is an Olympic sport. Once again this brings me back to drawing or painting because I could sit out in the woods and enjoy nature. This could be promising. But don't expect me to show anyone my artistic endeavors.

Has it come to this?

Yes, it has come to forcing myself to have fun. I have set a goal of doing "something fun" three times a week for an hour. How sad that it has come to this. Fun is such a natural thing when you are young. Everything I did when I was little seemed fun and if it wasn't I stopped doing. Now, I seem to has lost some of that. Don't get me wrong, I love to laugh and I do it frequently. However, I have gotten a little lost over the last three or four years being in graduate school. So this semester I am on a mission to have fun. What is the point of doing things if you do not like them. Now, before anyone chimes in and gives me the cliche "life is full of doing things that your just have to do like paying bills" let me clarify what I am talking about. I am quite aware that there are responsibilities like paying bills, filing taxes, taking out the trash, doing dishes etc... that may not be fun but are necessary parts of life. This is not what I am talking about. I have no problem sucking it up and doing the things that have to get done. I am speaking more to hobbies, interests, leisure time, and things you do when you are not working. In America it seems like we live to work but I grew up in Europe where they work so they can live and do the things they like. I have nothing against a hard days work, in fact I think it is good for you. However, I do have something against my life being consumed with work. I want to do things that are life giving, rejuvenating, and just plain fun. With all that said, what fun thing should I do this week? I know that I love team sports and activities of that nature, however, I am a week away from being 8 months pregnant so those fun things are out of the question for now. I also love to make things and use some creativity so I will try my hand at some kind of craft this week. I will pick one out tomorrow and see how it goes this weekend.